I started my Animation foundation degree at College on the 16th and words can't express how excited i've felt about it, i've literally been counting the days since my interview in February! Oh lordy lordy how nice it is to have finally started :3
So I'm just settling in right now, my peers and tutors all seem like lovely people so that is a bonus but I just hope I pass with flying colours, that is the whole point of being at College after all.
But I have to say since all my friends both my age and a year younger have either been at university for a year now or are just beginning this month I haven't really got a lot of company around me to "hang out" with yet so here's hoping I make some really great friends at College because in all honesty this is the very first time in my life I have ever felt lonely. I am usually great at occupying myself and a lot of the time I'd rather be on my own than in the company of others. Maybe I've just drunk too much wine tonight and i'm feeling the pressures of a fast approaching 20 year old. Okay so my birthday isn't until February but there's alot of things I'd have hoped to achieve by the big 2 0 that frankly don't even seem close to occuring yet. Hell I used to say way back when, that I want to be married by 21 and have a child the year after *massive cringe* . I know now that is utterly ridiculous (no offence to those who are, I mean ridiculous for me personally in relation to where I am in life not the actual age). Considering i've never had a boyfriend since the age of 14 never mind a serious relationship I don't see much happening in the foreseeable future unless I meet somebody unexpected. As if.
I feel like I've somewhat gone off on a tangent with this journal but I needed to get at least something off my chest. DON'T JUDGE MEHHH LOVELY PEEPS *hides in corner and cries*
Rant over. But bloody hell what a miserable night i've had.
I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow or else I will go utterly cream crackers.
Hope you are all doing better than me! I'd love to hear from you xxxxx